This is just not a story it's my life which is full of pains

Which starts with my bro marriage, i always need a kind of friend with whom i can share my day 2 day life. I am very big failure in maintaining relations it might be unknowingly but I never do intentionally. 4days before my bro marriage i has a 5 friend who want me in their life of course I do want them in my life every minute. After bro's marriage i went 2 hyd 4 my mba their my life starts very energetic I use to busy every minute in phone with my 5 friends even when i am in college I use to message after college again I use to busy in phone calls, but after Jan 2011 friend list come down to two from 5, after few months it's fall down 2 zero. With this situation finally i decided that no more adult friends then i tilted 2words children’s but i forget that they are going 2 reach adult age in few years. Now the children cross age of 20 and my situation is came to start again like FLOW CHART, but i am not a computer to give my life a new start. Now i am searching light in dark night with the help job to keep myself busy so that I can avoid all those memories which heart me lot, actually i want to erase those bad dreams but not happy moments which is very less in my life. I am writing this not to make new friends or relations; it’s just for my satisfaction because I can’t share these with my friends because no one is there for me anymore. I’ll continue my blog more deeply in next blog. With my past I can say surely friends forever is only for quotes not for real life………….